today i'm supposed to write a rhyming poem about the ocean, but i never rhyme, and i have written so many poems about the ocean that i'm over it. i am done pounding the same sands over and over and over. my time is so much smaller than that. these days my inner landscape is post-apocalyptic. it's the clearing in the woods behind my parents' house in sepia tone, the wild dogs circling. it smells like wood smoke and fresh meat. warm meat. hot blood. --- when my poems were ocean songs they were expansive. i felt them for miles. these poems are personal. feral. they're mine. it's just me and the wild dogs, here, and the dogs are mine too. --- i gave up half my life to move to the coastline, these days, i miss the woods. in the northern boreal forest, you can drive for hours and be nowhere. you can get lost and mean it. when you're that far north, you're on your own. survival means something different. ---